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I wrote over 1k words in 5 days. Posted it, and write another 3k words in 24 hours. Posted that. Words are great. I missed words.
Also, I got what I think is the best review I have ever gotten. Ever!
This is such a great read, and such a great example of what one of the best uses of fanfiction is---the show itself doesn't have the time and space to explore Alex's train of thought and the process of his actions like this, and I want to know about those things, so this makes me really happy. It all feels detailed and realistic and appropriately heartstring-tugging (oh my god, Michael just...collapsing into Alex's arms, I'm dying, and THIS: Nothing, not a single bit of it, compared to the way I felt when he stood there with that hammer. askdfj;alkj), and like, the ~drama~ of the show is fun to watch obviously, but I also really love this vision of Alex-telling-Michael-what-he-knows, he's so calm and collected and resolute, it's beautiful and really comforting to read, this idea that Alex has taken some time on his own sorting through information and his own emotions and he's ready to come to Michael with support and understanding.
Also, one thing that really stands out to me about this piece is this: They had had a fight before Alex deployed to Iraq the last time. Michael had declared that Alex should not expect to find Michael waiting for him when he got back and he had fully expected him to leave, to go anywhere that did not contain so many heart wrenching memories. Just...oh my god. I hadn't ever considered that angle on it---I thought you'd be long gone isn't that specific, so it hadn't occurred to me that Michael, angry and hurt, might have been the one to put that idea in Alex's head, and it's so painful and makes so much sense as something Michael would say just to try and feel like they're on equal footing, that he could walk away from Alex, too. (Which is a G I A N T L I E obviously, but he gets a gold star for trying, maybe?)
Also, I got what I think is the best review I have ever gotten. Ever!
This is such a great read, and such a great example of what one of the best uses of fanfiction is---the show itself doesn't have the time and space to explore Alex's train of thought and the process of his actions like this, and I want to know about those things, so this makes me really happy. It all feels detailed and realistic and appropriately heartstring-tugging (oh my god, Michael just...collapsing into Alex's arms, I'm dying, and THIS: Nothing, not a single bit of it, compared to the way I felt when he stood there with that hammer. askdfj;alkj), and like, the ~drama~ of the show is fun to watch obviously, but I also really love this vision of Alex-telling-Michael-what-he-knows, he's so calm and collected and resolute, it's beautiful and really comforting to read, this idea that Alex has taken some time on his own sorting through information and his own emotions and he's ready to come to Michael with support and understanding.
Also, one thing that really stands out to me about this piece is this: They had had a fight before Alex deployed to Iraq the last time. Michael had declared that Alex should not expect to find Michael waiting for him when he got back and he had fully expected him to leave, to go anywhere that did not contain so many heart wrenching memories. Just...oh my god. I hadn't ever considered that angle on it---I thought you'd be long gone isn't that specific, so it hadn't occurred to me that Michael, angry and hurt, might have been the one to put that idea in Alex's head, and it's so painful and makes so much sense as something Michael would say just to try and feel like they're on equal footing, that he could walk away from Alex, too. (Which is a G I A N T L I E obviously, but he gets a gold star for trying, maybe?)
